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dreams la romana, dominican republic 6.20.2009 |

leisurely vacations...i thought they didn't exist

[take me back...]

So for months my coworkers and I have been talking about going on vacation together to some all inclusive resort, the key points being a gorgeous beach and unlimited drinks. It seemed like we were rallying up a decent group to go...but when the time came to set our plans in stone everyone was dropping out like a bunch of teenage potheads from high school (no offense to potheads...some of you are alarmingly smart). Anyway...I really had my heart set on a beautiful turquoise beach--actually, scratch that. That was an understatement. My heart needed this relaxing vacation after five months of busy season that came bundled with occasional quarter life crisis symptoms and alternating pangs of mild depression and frustration. All of this, of course, came complete with an umbrella of stress. So yes, this was a vacation that I needed moreso than wanted.

Long story short, Herbert was a trooper and was down like my comforter so I booked an all inclusive package to DR for 5 nights, indifferent towards the imminent streams of office rumors. Why DR? We didn't want to catch the swine flu in mexico and found the best deal for DR.

So we set on our full day journey at 4am saturday and after a series of airport procedures and unsettling naps amongst the clouds, we arrived at the resort at dusk and was greeted by live Spanish entertainment and a much needed glass of champagne.

>>first night's look around
the lobby


looking back


the moon overlooking the beach


the pier, (a romantic spot, indicated by a &heart; on the map)


dawn


doggy &heart;


poopoo bear &heart;


in search of the sunrise (volume required for commentary)




sun rising...


hutted lounge chairs


cool loungepods


>>day 1: amigos y tragos

swim-up bar


drinks!


my bartender was barack obama. holla!


he promotes peace


and drinks for everyone =)


new friends that egged me on to drink too much


oh ya people get married here


ANYWAY. another new friend--we all went to the disco...


after watching the championship game on the beach...boooo


>>day 2: altos de chavon, el rio, y la isla de catalina


altos de chavon, a gorgeous town...that was a recreation of medieval europe as an attraction. i thought only disneyland was allowed to do this??


it's pretty amazing though


i love the cobblestones!


only special people get presented in this amphitheater ;p


exercise for the day


overview of what they called the coliseum (some useless/optional commentary)




the church. i wonder if it's even used


okay...time to move one..waiting for the speedboat to catalina island


catalina island...aka paradise beach i guess


herbie & i cordially come you to paradise beach


***WELcome you to paradise beach. LTTAP, thanks (learn to take a picture)


postcard photo


more postcarding


the sexiest of all ;p


beware when you travel with me. i make you take a lot of pictures


apparently this is not how you climb to get a coconut.


herbert managed to get these though (they were on the ground)


♥ love the water


group picture! ie, picture of herbert & me i swear


getting ready to snorkel


while snorkelling...


this is what i saw O_O




i also saw


and


and this sea caterpillar thing was pretty funky


and


and then i called it quits


it got a little ominous


we were starving after so good thing they had some baby lobster!~


resting


after catalina we went to the river


this is where they filmed rambo & anaconda


A-ROD's house. herbie took a million photos of it...



>>day 3: kayak, la playa privada, modelos ;p & hogueras

a start the day off with a few drinks


grab some fruit for the beach


head down to the beach


camp out


enjoy the view


take a picture


migrate to a hammock


group picture!


borrow a kayak


test out the waters


find your own private strip of beach


i'm selfish when it comes to beach real estate


now u can get silly with model poses when no one's lookin ;p


karate kid?


strike a pose


anything i can do he can do better???


try again


pwnd again. beware..i make you take my picture and i make you pose for pictures...


this one's for monica


o_O


time to return back to the beach!


and at nightt...there was a bonfire!


it was pretty big (that's what she said)


another video =) volume required for commentary





>>day 4: los momentos ultimos

this is why i'm hot. check.


bike tour around bayahibe


natural freshwater pond


exploring the resort


ewww herbertttt what are you doing??


random: peacock


ok now for the jumpy thingy!


herbert you first!


woohoo!


k my turn!


muahaha


sand monster


ummm...happiest sand monster ever


group picture!


herbert redeeming himself


the sand was super fine


herbert's favorite drink


see how quickly he downed it?


and then we had coconut drinks


and in our room we found a random crab


and this was how i found poopoobear & doggy


>>day 5: chau, DR

so long =*(



WHEW! what a trip...so many pictures to share =) and here i am in rainy boston...i just want to go back =( *yawn* my sleeping schedule is all effed up. i cant wait for...vegas ;)


+ finished reading the history of love. it's not bad
+ finished reading the namesake. definitely a worthwhile read
+ would love to start time travellers wife but i'm stuck w. my auditing book.
+ my stomach hurts =(
+ happy father's day!!


daddy...you've spoiled me for life. how will the other men in my life ever compare?




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i'm 24 now. 6.19.2009 |

with flashbacks from the 23's

[in retrospect i guess i don't mind bday celebrations ;p ]

so i had just come back from vacationing in the dominican republic and my first impulse was to do a massive post to document my first vacationer's vacation (leisurely vacation vs hustle bustle vacation)...but at the same time i felt obligated to acknowledge the day that i stuffed another year under my belt. i'm sure one of these days birthdays will start to mean nothing more than a cake and extra candle--but for the time being, each extra flame i blow out every year promises all this hope and experiences to come...and for that reason i feel that it's worth remembering. and at the rate that i'm going with the reputation of my poor brain, remembering requires some form of documentation.


flashback - 23 ;)
things i remember:

+ pre-b-day getaway: vegas. um. i'd rather not post pictures from this trip lol. good times though =)

+ on my actual birthday i was miserable on this restatement client in el segundo. i realize that my birthday isn't special enough to take a day off and so i worked. 11 hours. i think i cried about this when i was drunk.

+ may 7, 2008. i invited some people to a nearby tiki bar...i didn't expect many to show up but it definitely made my day that people made it up...and i'm sorry to say that after a dozen+ drinks i stopped remembering the late stragglers who arrived past 11pm





































+ i got progressively drunk, i'll spare the aftermath except for that i ended up safe in my hotel with doggy:



+ the next morning i woke up with a room full of people, still slightly inebriated. i thought 'screw work' and we went to mcdonalds. except i wanted something soupy...and i happened to have cup of noodles in my car. so i came in ghettostyle and got some hot water from micky and enjoyed my noodles while others scarfed down their egg mcmuffins. i came into work around 11.

+ and then there was cosmic bowling. and just because i can (birthday girl rights), the following theme was enforced: xoxo, gossip girl, aka prep school. this little outing was reserved for my highschool friends ♥

























thank you for all the memories...and thank you for taking care of me!

turning 24

+ i was slightly dreading my 24th bday...and being in the midst of busy season i didn't really want to plan anything. everything was sorta last minute so i just threw some ideas together

+ may 7, 2009. i woke up, about to go to the gym...and my mom and brother bombarded me with cupcakes =) and yes, i'm all gross in the morning.










+ very typical of my mom to get me workout clothes for my birthday haha

+ thank goodness i was in my robe when they came in my room =X

+ so, being the grown up that i am, i went to work on my birthday. this year was much better--8 hr day and we went out for lunch. the receptionist even gave me a gift =)









+ at home i got to celebrate with my dad & bro. we went out for chinese because i wanted crab. but they had no crab. so we 'settled' for lobster.











+ leon picked out the celtics colored cake (mint chip & white cake) ♥

+ then there was mosun...not many pictures here, i drank a bit much, dropped my phone and lost the backing. bad habbit =(









+ and then my favorite----a mixed group at tokyo delves!! a must go for everyone.

+ last year's theme: xoxo, gossip girl

+ this year's theme: jpop! (and then i included rockstas & rappers for niki & herbie)
















yayy group picture





umm shirley i swear





get the sukiyaki!

because i hear the sushi is no bueno









my extensions...LOL allen's expression




+ and now...some videos!!

when i say sake, you say bomb! omg so fun =)


ummm..chicken dance...dirty version?? eww >_<

it's my birthday, and i can drink if i want to? ;p


+ and then we all did drunken karaoke afterwards =)
















i hello kitty stamped everyone

that was a lot of pictures. whatever somewhat insightful reflections i had to share have now escaped my brain. i think i decided that this will be a good year, and i'll leave it at that.

+ go to tokyo delves
+ ♥ thank you to everyone who continually make me feel special on my birthdays
+ and thanks for just showing up actually =)
+ please dont stop the music ;p




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for the love of the game 4.22.2009 |

all fun and games, right?


[til someone gets hurt, anyway]

sometimes i start blogging and then i get distracted. and then at some point i revisit what i wrote and either think, hm, that was interesting, or hm, i need to think about that some more. when the latter happens, like right now, i feel compelled to finish my thoughts.

but first off, another distraction: i've been so scatterbrained lately that it's pretty ridiculous. the only thing that kept my spirits up were the blue skies and waters driving up and down PCH, and coming home to pretty flowers. its not much but those things get me grinning like an idiot. in any case, the weather turned crappy for whatever reason and my flowers are dying, despite all the water and ice i feed them (it was really hot in my room). and now i'm listening to trance music. wth.


ok. back to my original thought. a snippet from last week's worktime conversation:


gf: if you dont play the game does that mean you lose?
me: haha no you can only lose/win if u play. but you may be missing out. just depends on how u see it ;p
gf: welll ok
me: or u can be like me and play for fun
gf: i dont like playing games!
me: ie, not invested in the game if u win/lose
gf: but i want to play like... i dont know how to play games. i just wanna cut to the chase. i want to hang out with 'xxx' without the whole playing hard to get
me: then just hang out with him
gf: not knowing when you'll talk to them next cuz you dont want to seem a certain way
me: or make him play your game
gf: but they are probably doing the same thing. its SO STUPID i dont like hot and cold. i just want hot hot!
me: tell him that 'we can play the game if you really want but i just wanna skip to the part where u win the prize' hahaha

so the conversation continued and i concluded the following:

a)
it's all fun and games until you lose track of time and get caught up in the game, even though you weren't that serious about it in the first place. at that point you're invested and you just don't want to lose. solution? quit, win, or play another game. just beware, it can knock you down.

b) it requires some level of patience. when the ball is in the other person's court, you just gotta wait for it to come back. or you can grab the ball from them, but then they'll know how much you really want it. and it's possible that the other person just wants to up and go with the ball. so you can either entice them to continue playing, or you can just let it go. there are plenty of people around the court to play with. it's their loss, really.

c) it's possible you'll get the crazy one who does not abide by any rules. they probably make up their own crazy rules and you'll get caught up in whatever crazy game they come up with. this can be very stressful but exciting, because it's more unpredictable and much more challenging. but unless you got stamina and are willing to continue, the craziness will probably wear you out and it'll just be fun while it lasted. a memorable experience, to say the least. unless it turns out regrettable.

d) you get tired, or worse yet, you get injured. you can continue playing, but it'll only hurt and tire you more. you decide to sit out for a bit, or for awhile. you might be thinking, damn, i thought i was better at this game, or how did i allow myself to get hurt? or you just ran out of energy, or you got bored, the momentum got lost in between possessions of the ball. in any case, you sit out. and you wonder, am i missing out? but then you realize you have to get back to your studies, your family, your friends, your life. you only have so much bandwidth, and energy can neither be created nor destroyed. so it's time to reallocate your energy to all the other items on your priority list.

e) none, and all of the above. c'est la vie.

just be a good sport. shake hands, and proceed accordingly.

+ d is for diem

singledom 4.13.2009 |

a whole year of it

[...that went by pretty quickly, actually]

initially time could not have passed by any more slowly...but towards the end everything just picked up and voila! today marks my year of singleness. sigh. its good, it's bad, it just is. but it better change by next year, haha (i'm serious).

o well. some eye candy first--vegas recap from last weekend with the ladies for jo's bday:


broken down transportation


towtruckin


M resort buffet


alcohol


primpin to the maxxx


standard mirror shot


at the men of x show


home girlies


more alcohol


more home girlies


birthday girl & random birthday boy


birthday boy lead to unlimited alcohol

those were some good times. but i can't seem to get me no satisfaction.

and i can't seem to articulate how i feel right now/today. it's one of those things where the more you think about it the bigger a blank you draw, and the bigger the blank gets, the emptier you feel, surrounded by meaningless space. and then you just feel somewhat alone and cold, but numb and jaded at the same time. it's the perfect breeding ground for the emo kid within, but as much as you'd like to let it all out you just say fuck it instead and save it all for a rainy day. and as many attractive options you may have you can't help but see the futility in all of them. and it's not like you want to act all mopey and dreary but that damn cloud of pessimism is reigning over your ass today.

but it's ok, because today will be over soon, and in due time you'll be sportin that designer smile of yours that i only see on special occasions.

+ xoxo

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nothing like a dosage of vegas 4.03.2009 |

to cure a mild case of love sickness

[and before you know it, it'll be gone]

i don't know what's wrong with me, i can never seem to pack all my things the night before. it usually ends up with me packing the morning of or throwing the last few things in right as my ride pulls up. i think i need to do something about that.

but for this weekend, i already have my two dresses (i'm going to avoid any temptation of putting on a third dress to go out and cutting my finger this time) and my bathing suit. everything else can figure itself out, right? ;p

in other exciting news, i think my asia travel plans have become a little more concrete. ok well maybe not concrete, but cement. it'll be all ready and set soon enough, hopefully. and what?? it may involve a visit back to nzed?? !~! *crossing my fingers*

i'm addicted to looking at wedding photos. i cannot be stopped, it's pretty bad. i'm trying to figure it out. i think it's in the gaze. or maybe it's really in the kiss afterall. *shrug*

+ 65 in vegas...isn't that cold?!?!

!!!!!!! 4.01.2009 |

i found my wedding photographers!

[now i just gotta find someone to marry me]

so not to be creepy...even though it kind of is, but i spent a good two hours looking at other people's wedding photos. and no, i don't know these people. but ANYWAY, after my impulsive perusal of www.ourblogoflove.com (i swear i didn't search it, i came across it randomly!), i decided that i will entrust these photographers with what will be one of the happiest days of my life (i hope i'm not jinxing anything). and yes, i am well aware that i need someone to marry in order to have a wedding to photograph. and yes, i am even more aware that i am single. and yes, i am such a girl for already thinking about these things. get off me.

some of my faves:

























ok well i don't want to copyright infringe the whole site but every wedding was captured so beautifully and for the most part so candidly...and i absolutely adore the various compositions and lighting. aside from being gorgeous these photos actually capture the emotions behind the subjects quite well--you can clearly see the adoration in the groom and the happiness in the beaming brides.

and i was just playing around the site some more and i came across engagement photos...





they're just too cute....*sigh*

this is for me like what www.cuteoverload.com is for some people *ahem* ;p

+ these photographers better be around another 3-5 years

i love me a good glass of wine |

over a bubble bath
[and some bosa nova]

check it out now, the funk soul brother: http://www.montagebeverlyhills.com/
is it sad that the service here is so great that i actually feel loved and happy?

audit room balcony


*yawn* all those drinks got me all contemplative ;p

for those who have had the pleasure of seeing me in water 5ft+ deep, you probably have the luxury of an amusing mental image when i say that i'm a weak swimmer, at best. while seasoned swimmers took their turn with the diving board during p.e., i was comfortable in the lap pool messing around with my trusty little kickboard. but, out of curiousity, i wanted my try at taking the plunge. it may have been out of whim (or was it really out of requirement? i forget), but as i ascended the ladder, carefully gripping each rung, i really did think it through. i knew that i was 99% safe up there, seeing that there are others around to rescue me if need be, and i knew i had it in me to at least go up for air once and make my way to the edge. but no matter what mental preparations i had fostered, the moment i stood at the edge of the board looking down, i hesitated.

i hesitated, but i jumped. i made the decision to jump. love is not the jump, per se, it's the fall and whatever follows. the commitment is the jump--the decision to leap out of the mental barriers that not only protects us but cages us. once you jump, you have no choice but to follow through with all that it entails--the falling, the impact, the post impact. and commitment is not instantaneous either--it's a process. it's playing with the idea of jumping, it's working up the courage to walk over to the deep end and it's in every rung you climb until you're at the top. and when you're up there, you may have just gone too far to go back. you may jump with gusto or you may just accidentally fall. when you're up there you may know what to expect, but the moment you start falling, you can only hope.

and love itself is irrational, especially when you didn't mean to fall into it. but i'd like to think that it's initially the choice you consciously make that even allows you to get to that point of no return and control. if need be you can always abstain from the deep end and turn your back on the temptation of jumping.

love is everywhere, and love goes anywhere. you have your first loves, your true loves, your unrequitted loves, your wish-i-hadn't loves. you have your different degrees of love--the love for sleeping in, getting postcards, travelling, the $200 dress, the sunrise, disneyland, the best friend, your family, your significant other. love is pretty amazing. but love can also be fickle and volatile, which means it can be dangerous and destructive. and that's why commitment in love is so desirable to me. why wouldn't anyone want to make that choice to cultivate and eternalize that state of being and feeling? now that's just whack.

+ i don't get it, what changed?
+i'm sleepy! goodnight.

always, on repeat

"get down on your knees whisper what i need something pretty i feel that when i'm old i'll look at you and know the world is beautiful then you tell me you say that love goes anywhere in your darkest time it's just enough to know it's there when you go i'll let you be but you're killing everything in me"